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| 5 things on my mind
1. Jason Call asked me to do his album art for his new cd! How exciting.
2. My website is up. http://www.emilymalan.com
ch-ch-check it out!
3. ONE MORE WEEK OF FLIPPING SUMMER TERM!!!!
4. Product lighting, still life, architecture AND history of photo2? Most challenging classes for 4th term. I hope I don't go crazy in the fall.
5. there are too many guys in my life. they should just go away. and i hate the fact that i flirt with jon, the 29 year old who works in the media warehouse. -_-
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| "Well guess who ended things and now we're not even friends anymore" I said to Ariel on stage. "What? Really?" she said to me. "Yeah...I feel terrible. I texted him saying how I really didnt want to do this but thought it was best if i stayed out of his life and he said that would be best." "Wow surprising", she responded. Black Nate was sitting around with us and was like to me "wait. boyfriend? husband? fiance?" "Not even boyfriend" Ariel said back. "I can tell you look upset...its in your face. Fuck that guy. You're 19. You shouldn't be upset over some guy. Fuck him" "You wouldn't be saying that if you knew who I was talking about". "Who?" and we tell him who it is. "What? HIM? FUCK HIM. FUCK HIM. You shouldn't be crying over him. You're 19!!"
I made the hardest decision in my life. I know I made the right choice, but somehow I still feel terrible about making it. I just lost a really good friend- but I can't deal with his baggage anymore. I can't deal with being treated like somebody he is dating, but has no feelings for me. He can't have the best of both worlds with me-- it's not fair to me at all.
Black Nate made a good point this evening. I am just 19. I should be having fun, not being in a relationship. Not getting so involved with somebody who will never ever put that same amount of involvement back.
I know I made the right choice, but I don't understand why I feel so bad about it.
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| Third term is getting so lame.
I hate everything I'm shooting. It's sad really.
Hopefully schoolwork will get better. Next term.
I always say that.
On a side note;
LA definitely needs a 'spare the air' day right about now.
Grossss. | | |
| In six more days, it will be the first of June.
and once that first of June hits, it will be six months.
Six months is way too long to be hung up on one person(s).
Or at least that's how I feel.
and with recent events, I'm not really sure how I AM supposed to feel.
Hurt? Angry? Happy?
I don't know. Maybe, I'm just still in shock from what has happened on Thursday night / Friday morning.
It's officially week 3. I'm not exhausted yet. I'm not super stressed out yet.
Except the fact that I have two morning classes and I'm always so far, tardy to Composition.
and I overslept for Everard's Portrait Lighting class.
Kinda sucks. But oh well.
I'm loving summer term though. I'm so glad I decided to go to school during the summer. | | |
| My Monday started off pretty shitty.
I had terrible cramps when I woke up at 8am today, so I decided to skip Pete's class and go sleep some more.
I woke up around 130-2 in the afternoon and started rushing around the apartment and Art Center to get things done.
Loaded some film and put props away and went off to photograph my landscape for Norma's class.
Went over to Sunset Plaza on the Sunset Strip to take an urban landscape. People were staring at me, and one guy was asking what I was doing. I said oh this is for class, its an urban landscape. and he was like oh very cool. A security guard stopped me and asked me what I was doing. I shouldn't have been hassled because I was on the sidewalk. But whatever. After that another man came up to me, telling me he's from Detroit and works for a TV station and asked if I was doing digital or just film. I said "no digital, just film. It's for school". He gave me his business card and told me if I got any good shots that I should drop him a line. Wow.
What really gets to me is that while all this was happening and I was setting up for my shot. This black Suburban SUV was at the red light at the intersection and two men were sitting in the backseat of the car. Watching me set up my shot. One of the men asked me what I was taking a picture of and I said "Oh just all of this. It's a landscape. An assignment for school". The man said "take a picture of my restaurant over there. Caffe Primo". and I said "So if I walk over there and take a picture of your restaurant, I won't get hassled?" and he said "yeah you won't. if anybody asks say that the manager said it was all right. Say that Tony said it was okay. We'll take good care of you".
Soooo after I finished my assignment for class, I went over to the restaurant, shot 2 polaroids and two sheets of film. As I was finishing up and packing up, the owner comes up to me and says "How'd you do?" and I gave him the polaroid with my flickr address and my phone number saying if he ever wanted me to photograph his place again, I'll gladly do it. Then he said "are you hungry? we'll take care of you" and so basically, I got a free meal!
And, well. It was the best free meal I've ever had. | | |
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